Who needs a summer vacation when you can go on a guilt trip?

My apologies to my mass of followers, I'm sure you've all been waiting on pins and needles for my next blog post, and here it is, almost 10 months later. Sorry. I hate feeling guilty. Thing is, I'm also very good at it. I hate letting people down, no matter the reason. I hate to think about the people that I let down without even realizing it... it's a terrible thought. I also have a tendency to feel guilty about things that I have absolutely no control over, and things that I shouldn't feel guilty about. Today's problem? Meredith got into the preschool that I wanted her to get into. So WHY is this a problem? Well, I had her registered for a WONDERFUL program already, the same one that the boys went through and they LOVED it. It's fun, it's cheap (relatively speaking), and the teachers rock. I wanted to try to get her into another program where she could get her speech therapy in class, making one less place that I'd have to take her to in the course of the week (between school, occupational therapy and speech, this soon-to-be four year old had something going on 5 days a week, not counting any of the other things that she would like to do, like dance). So yes, it was a total convenience thing for me... I'm not a freak-out parent who thinks that a preschool program can make or break a kid (if they're having fun in a structured environment and they happen to learn things too, that's awesome), I figure that any preschool is good for a kid. But I'm feeling guilty about leaving our beloved preschool behind. It didn't really help that I'm "friends" with the preschool director, and she LOVES Meredith. She saw me come in today and immediately knew why I was there. I felt horrible. I feel horrible. These poor teachers last year dealt with a kid that they could not understand much of what she was saying, and now I'm pulling her out of their program. I know there are kids on the waiting list that will be glad to get in (like I was with the other school), but in the mean time, I just feel like I'm letting them down. At least I have a kid who they are sad to see go, and I don't have to feel guilty about having a nightmare child staying in their program.